claire has such a hard time being in love. just like clint does. && i seriously love the characterization of that, bc as an abused child whose only (probably) saw one real relationship which was his parents ( maybe some foster homes as well, but they were none better ) and seeing how badly it could hurt, the fact that it shaped certain parts is something i will headcanon for life okay???  sure not all the time did your parents relationship shape your ideas on relationships in general but i assure you watching your parents hurt each other ( or in clint’s case, watch his father abuse his mother, his brother and himself all for a reason he couldn’t see or understand )  would definitely shape how you see relationships, just as seeing your parents deeply in love. 

which is probably why clint ( and by extension claire ) is so bad at relationships. you can’t spend a portion of your life seeing your family ripped to shreds by abuse and then turn around and be all like ‘i am fully functional’. which means claire cheats, she falls in love easily bc someone showed her something she had never felt before; she falls out of love because it’s easier to stop being in love than it is to admit how much she loves a person. she’s a person who doesn’t know how to be in love. 

but holy shit when she’s in love ( and she admits it to herself and the other person ), she’s in it forever and she wants to bathe in the sunlight of the person she feels for and she wants to sing from the clouds and dance in the rain and she wants to breathe in all happiness. and it’s so rare bc being in love means letting down her walls and that’s so hard for her to do because people have hurt her time and time again, letting her down or purposely using her and so she doesn’t know how to do it often; she can make friends and crack jokes with everyone she meets but love is an emotion that claire has a hard time with bc it’s never been much in her vocabulary but she adores the feeling of it

idk man, it’s just a rant about love.

 



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